Sunday, March 1, 2009
To: Readers From: Melissa
Many of you are curious to know what I think of my dad and how our visit went so I thought I would let you briefly into my world. I was not impressed that he just showed up. I don't like when people just "show up" and I felt like I was forced to see him because what kind of person would I be if I just made my dad leave after driving 8 hours to come see me. Although, I do have a mean streak like my mom, I'm not cold hearted. I was tempted to send him packing because I was furious. Also I do not like the fact that he apparently thinks he has "strong feelings" for my mom. Most kids want their parents to get back together but not me!!! I would rather go jump off the nearest bridge than see my parents get back together. I live with my mom for a reason! As far as how our visit went it just felt kind of awkward. Here is this person that is suppose to be my dad but it feels like talking to a stranger. How do you have a relationship with someone who doesn't even know who you are and hasn't been apart of your life? It's not that I don't want my dad to be apart of my life but I'm not used to him being a part of my life. He has been out of my life for so long that I almost feel like I don't need him. I'm 17 years old, I make good grades, I'm responsible and mature (not fully matured I know! I don't know everything I realize this!), I'm a hard worker, I don't do drugs, I don't get in trouble, and I'm as independent as a 17 year old can be so obviously I'm doing just fine without him so why on earth would I need him now? I am willing to forgive but it will just take some time to adjust to him being apart of my life if I ever do adjust to it.